Caressing the contours of the Alamin, i am reduced to weeping
May God grant me strength enough to endure the flash flood of tears that swell the rising oceans of misery upon contemplating the innocence of children, women, starving . . .
And there are endless processions of faces of her, of boys, of mothers weeping of starving children in deserts drowning in the blood of the earth -- have you not heard, they are irrigating the deserts with blood and oil -- a newborn, deformed, cries out in some agony we cannot know and always the mothers weeping.
Brothers, put down your weapons. This dying patch of green on this drop of blue suspended in all this vast darkness is too quickly fading.
Brothers, were you not told? One God, one Community, one Book. Why are you cutting out your own eyes? Holding your hand in this flame will not move God, it will not undo Divine Will.
Brothers, i dare say that is Satan who is tossing whispers gently in the darkness of your minds And none of this -- volumes of poetry! -- will change a single stroke of what is Written. But brothers, have you not heard, we have free will and besides, i cannot remain silent.
God is Great!
If nothing else, we owe it to the children the orphans the sick, for did God not tell you that they are He that He is they, and God knows best.
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"futile wanderings in a white abyss"
In this intimate space, this darkness between the dumb white of the page and the blinding light of being i must make a confession. i hate writing poetry. It is like a ghetto riot like a thorough war like a night of drunkeness like a
wet dream like some sticky cathartic process that leaves me feeling empty, drained robbed
Where have my tears gone? What wretched force has dammed up my weeping?
Perhaps if i abandoned poetry like i have abandoned intoxication like i have abandoned hopelessness like i have abandoned godlessness like i have abandoned self-indulgence Then i would be able to go on weeping and teeth-gnashing all through the night until i could all but feel God bearing down upon me.
Here is an abridged list of Islamic texts that i'm looking for. They can all be found via Dar-us-Salam.com and they are at the top of my list in terms of importance and choice. Please pass the word on if you can.
1. Noble Qur'an (preferably with English transliteration)
2. Al-'Aqidah Al-Wasitiyyah, by Muhammad bin Salih Al-'Uthaimin (2 vols.)
3. Kitab At-Tauhid, M. Abdul Wahhab
3. Commentary on the Three Fundamentals of Islam, M. Abdul Wahhab
4. Summarized Sahih Al-Bukhari, trans. Muhammad Muhsin Khan
6. History of Islam, Akbar Shah Najeebabadi (3 vols.)
Dar-us-Salam offers a package deal of 7 books (including several on my list, and all 7 of which would be good for me), at a reduced price, but that would be something we would have to work out in greater detail. Please let me know.
Much love and a deep gratitude for all that folks do for me, Please pass this list on. i haven't been recieving very many books lately but i hope that that changes, as i put a lot of value on this current area of study (Islam) in which i am engaged.
As we move into the Winter season, the North Wind, i realize i am about halfway through my time in prison. This is a rather inspiring notion, as the time is passing swiftly. I have been quite blessed throughout this time, in terms of support and circumstance, in more ways than i know. This has been an incredible learning experience for me, albeit often to my detriment. i am often reminded of the Johnny Cash line, about prison making him "a wiser, weaker man." And then there is the Italian love song which states "the flower of youth dies in prison." There is much truth to this. And the prison does not end at the walls of these facilities.
Alas, i have a few requests. First i want to extend my thanks to all the love i've recieved in the form of books and reading material over the years, and in terms of commissary funds, letters, etc. My hope is that, at this halfway point, i'll be able to purchase a new pair of shoes ($70), some new underwear (about $10 for three pairs), and a new MP3 [mine has recently begun malfunctioning... ($88.40)]. Music (of my choosing) makes such a huge difference throughout the day... These are all purchases that will last me the rest of my bid. So, i feel they are worthwile investments. Please, if you can donate any money, i will be immensely grateful. Such concrete things make all the difference in my life at this point, like the difference between having coffee and going without. Prison is miserable, but these things allow us some semblance of serenity.
And if you send me any letters with return addresses, i will respond! Please be patient. i know a few folks have been waiting for some time now...
i will also be doing more writing for the interwebs soon, and if folks want me to write poems specifically crafted to them, just get in touch.
Much love, With a gentle strength from a hard place,
we bury dead gods in unknown soil grated against the jagged rocks of sidewalks pierced by the lying light shooting off metal ants swell around soda cans and intersections adrift in the police line-ups of the public busses yearning for the touch of your breath of smoke through the snow dripping sticky down the staircases and alleys coagulating blood lacking ground to stand upon or grass to lay in The stomach turns to cement in the onslaught of broken bottles, elevators gunshots and dog barks, butts the dying loved ones and the trhiving fools, that great inert mass of cold indifference: The City.
I'm wanting to update everyone on my situation here in United States Penitentiary - Terre Haute, in Terre Hate, Indiana.
I'm in S.H.U. (Special Housing Unit) AKA "The Hole", again. I'll probably be in here a while, too. USP Terre Haute has a MAJOR problem discriminating against the Muslim population. they just beat up one of my muslim brothers back here in SHU on 9-25. when I came in SHU they gave me a mattress that's only about 1/4 of a mattress thick. Just a small piece of foam. My back is killing me from it, too. I came in SHU Sunday September 20th. The program statement for the mattress is 5270.10 ss 541.31 part "d". If anyone can make it happen, I need a "Noble Quran" (might be spelled Koran). No other Quran.
I also need a massive call-in campaign to target the administration here and BOP central office in Washington D.C. about the discrimination of Muslim inmates and us being given mattresses that don't stand up to BOP policy. I'm going to give the mattress situation until next Friday (October 9th) then I'll begin a hunger strike and will NOT end it until I get a transfer to where I want to go. I have the BOP program statement on hunger strikes. Program statement #5562.05.
Also, they have me and my cellie on a disciplinary segregation range, but neither of us have an incident report and they're keeping my cellie (who has asthma) from posessing his inhalers.
If anyone would like to write me the address here is: